Lynne Spears wanted to have a private chat with her daughter Britney after she continued to speak publicly about the conservatorship that had governed her life for almost 14 years.
On February 1, 2008, Britney Spears was placed under the conservatorship of her father, Jamie Spears, and an attorney named Andrew M. Wallet after the singer had displayed unpredictable behaviour in public for a number of months prior to that day. Spears explained that the arrangement was prompted by the simple act of asking a doctor to deliver her medication “in a British accent… three days later there was a Swat team in my home, three helicopters”
Britney Spears revealed unsettling information about events that left her feeling “victimised” and “traumatised” on Sunday. Her protracted conservatorship, which ended in November, was further discussed.
Spears provides information on the court-ordered conservatorship she was placed under in 2008, with her father, Jamie Spears, serving as the conservator until it was dissolved in November 2021, in the recording, which has been rebroadcast by multiple fan accounts on YouTube.
Spears says at the start of the clip, “So I woke up this morning and I realised that there is a lot going on in my head that I have not really shared with anyone really,” explaining that she had held back what she truly believed and felt about the conservatorship in earlier interviews out of fear for what other people would think. “Honestly, I am here just to open up to people and see if anyone else has ever experienced hardships,” she said.
Beginning the beginning, Spears, 40, claims the conservatorship began when she was 25 years old. “We were very close, and I remember a lot of my pals messaging and contacting me to say they wanted to visit me when I was very young, Spears recalled. But what actually happened? To this day, I am still unsure of what I did, but because of my father’s punishment, I was unable to see anyone.”
“As you can probably understand, nothing made any sense to me. As she describes the confusion of the time, Spears says, “I literally spoke in a British accent to a doctor to prescribe my medication, and three days later there was a swat team in my home [with] three helicopters. She also adds that her enjoyment of “playing chase with paparazzi” was used as additional evidence of erratic behaviour.
“There were over 200 paparazzi outside my house videotaping me through a window of an ambulance holding me down on a gurney,” Spears recalled of the night things started.
Spears asserts that she thinks the conservatorship was “premeditated” and that her parents worked together with outside forces. “I know now that it was all planned, and a woman introduced the idea to my dad and my mom, [and] actually helped him carry through and make it all happen,” the author said.
Spears claims, “It was all pretty much set up.” “There [were] no drugs, alcohol, or anything else in my system; it was just pure abuse, and I have not even really shared even half of it,” the speaker said.
Spears claims that Jamie Spears sought “control” over her life and that the conservatorship allowed him to do so. He cherished being in charge of everything I did. I recall his opening statement, “I am Britney Spears, and I am in charge,” and how I responded, “Okay, then.”
The singer then goes into great depth about the struggles and horrors she had to go through while under the conservatorship. Every step she took was monitored, and there were limitations on what she could and could not do. I was never able to travel or leave the house, she claims.
“Every day I was told I was obese. The gym was a must for me. They made me feel like nothing, and I can still clearly recall how dejected and just I felt,” Spears admits. I did not even actually do anything, but I went along with it out of fear and fright.
“I had to just play this role that everything was OK all the time and I had to go along with it because I knew they could hurt me,” Spears continues.
Spears continues, “It was demoralising.” “You also need to realise that the duration of the tour and performances was close to 15 years. I am 30 years old and follow my dad’s instructions while I live alone. My mother is present for all of this, along with my brother and friends, who all support it.
Spears claims she was forced to perform on tours she did not want to, and when she resisted—most notably when her father made her perform a dance move she did not want to—he would threaten her with more legal action, which would cause her to lose even more freedoms. I can still hear my dad calling me as I was sobbing and asking, “Why are you guys doing this?” I only recall him saying, “You must pay attention to the doctors,” in that moment. You will receive instructions from the doctors. Currently, I am unable to assist you. And I recall that his last comments were, “Now you do not have to go [to the hospital], but if you do not go, we are going to go to court, there’ll be a big trial, and you are going to lose,” which I took to mean that you did not have to attend. You do not even have a lawyer, thus I have considerably more supporters than you do.
Spears claims that the way she was treated while under conservatorship caused her to “sort of stop believing in God at that time.” She also expresses surprise at how her family and all the enablers managed to “get away with it.”
Taking note of the fan-led #FreeBritney movement, which made the singer’s predicament known to a global audience.
Spears explains, “The whole thing that made it really confusing for me is that my sister and mother are not doing anything, but these people are out there fighting for me.” To me, it seemed as though they genuinely enjoyed seeing me as the bad guy — as if I was broken and they sort of just liked it that way. If not, why did not they stand outside my door and order me to get in the car, “Baby girl?” Go ahead. That, in my opinion, is what damaged me the most.
Spears holds her family solely responsible for her trauma. They killed me in real life. They disregarded me. I felt as though my family had abandoned me. She singled out her mother Lynn Spears because she believes that had she done so, her attorney could have fought to end the conservatorship.
“I am actually more angry at my mother,” Spears says, “because I heard that when reporters would call her at the time and inquire as to what was happening, she would… hide in the house and she would not speak up.” “I never knew what to say,” was the constant refrain. We are praying for her, but I really do not want to say the wrong thing. I believe she could have found a lawyer for me in under two seconds.
Spears gives a motivational speech at the end of the video. “I am sharing this because I want people to understand that I am only human,” “I said. These events have made me feel traumatised, and how can I heal if I do not talk about it?”
“If you are an unusual introvert like me who frequently feels alone and you needed to hear a tale like this today to make yourself feel less alone, know that you are not alone. My life has not been easy.”
Complete Britney Spears Deleted Video
okay so I woke up this morning and I realized that there’s a lot going on in my head that I haven’t really shared with anyone really um and I’ve had tons of opportunities Oprah the interviews um to go on a platform and and share um hardships and or or just really anything that’s going on in my mind and I really don’t think any of that is relevant to um getting paid to tell your story I feel like it’s kind of silly so I’m I’m I’m here honestly just to open myself to others and try to shed a light on if anyone out there has ever gone through hardships or whatever it is just to put a light on it and so that person doesn’t feel alone because I really know what that feels like I haven’t honestly um shared this openly too as well because I’ve always been scared of the judgment and definitely the embarrassment of just of the whole thing period and the skepticism and the cynical people of what um and their opinions of what people would actually think I do think I’m in a place now where I’m a little bit more confident that I can be willing to share openly um my thoughts and and what I’ve been through because I haven’t really had that outlet to share completely openly for so long just of scared of judgments thoughts of other people and what they think or what they may say and I think it’s crucial for my heart and my head to be able to speak openly about it as if anyone else would well the actual conservatorship actually started.
I think 15 to 16 years ago I was 25 when it started I was extremely young um I remember a lot of my friends texting me and calling me and we’re extremely close and they wanted to see me but by what had happened um honestly still to this day don’t know what really I did but the punishment of my father.
I wasn’t able to you know see anyone or like anything and you have to imagine none of it made sense to me I literally spoke in a British accent to a doctor to prescribe my medication and three days later there was a swap team in my home three helicopters and I remember my mom’s best friend and my two girlfriends we had to sleep over the night before they held me down on a gerner and again none of it made sense um literally the extent of my madness was playing chess with um when it was playing Chase with Paparazzi um which is still to this day one of the most fun things I ever did about being famous so I don’t know what was so harmful about that um but I remember my mom was sitting on the couch and she said we’ve heard people are coming here today to talk to you we should probably go you know to a hotel or something and I never really understood what she meant I didn’t believe her like as a lawyer coming here who is coming here then four hours later there were over 200 Paparazzi outside my house videotaping me through a window of an ambulance holding me down on a girmer.
I know now it was all premeditated and a woman introduced the idea to my dad and my mom actually helped him follow through and made it all happen it was all basically set up there was no drugs in my system no alcohol nothing it was pure abuse and and I haven’t haven’t even really shared even half of it I think the main thing I do remember when I started was my dad’s control he loved to control everything I did I remember the first day he said I’m Britney Spears and I’m calling the shots and I’m like alrighty then um my brother was a football player my dad was really really hard on him when he was younger um really abusive and I think when my mom gave him the idea for the conservatorship and his friend I think he just really like regrouped it and made such a really really overhauling big deal out of it and it was just really too much I remember him always being in the office and um my girlfriend was his assistant and they would just stay in there all day with the door shut and I was never if ever able to leave her go anywhere my first job after the two weeks of being hospitalized and completely traumatized out of my mind um.
I did a TV show called How I Met Your Mother and then I started working on an album um called Circus um and started working away right away all I do remember is I had to do what I was told um I was told I was fat every day I had to go to the gym I had to just and um I’d never remember feeling so demoralized and just they made me feel like nothing and I went along with it because I was scared I was scared and fearful I didn’t even really do anything and I had like a swap team and how like none of it made sense to me so since that day.
I did probably four and a half tours I did an album circus um Femme Fatale Brittany Jean and glory and then I started doing a Vegas show and uh Las Vegas and I did that for four and a half years I do remember working and I got to a point where you know because my pride in my 30s I have to live under my father’s rules and you know the dancers are playing and drinking and having fun at nights in Vegas and I couldn’t do anything and I remember just being like my performances I know were horrible like I even wore wigs and all the dancers were doing all these nice sexy head flip turns and I had conditioner treatment in my hair and like these little um caps over my head and just during a whole show getting conditioner treatments just with wigs on because I was just like a robot honestly.
I just I didn’t give a [ _ ] anymore because I couldn’t go where I wanted to go I couldn’t have the nannies that I wanted to have I couldn’t have cash um and it was just demoralizing so I was kind of like in this conspiracy thing of people claiming and like treating me like a superstar but yet they treated me like nothing well for some reason um I started to get a spark back I remember recording glory and for some reason I think producing and making music and I went to this little Spanish house and I got the fire back in my eyes for some reason and um it was at the end of recording glory and um my son named it and uh things started kind of taking a turn because I started getting more confidence just for myself and I think with confidence people kind of like oh wait what wait what’s going on now like she’s speaking up a little bit more but it might not be particularly a good thing if I’d been quiet for 15 years I think with confidence comes Enlightenment which makes you think better and that’s the last thing they wanted me to do is to actually be better because then who would be in control then but it was really tricky because I had to just play this role that everything was okay all the time and I had to go along with it because I knew they could hurt me so I’m sitting here like my friends all drinking alcohol and having fun in these parties and had no cash I literally felt like a nun my girlfriends from home came to visit me in a spa and I couldn’t even walk into the spa and they had their feet doing pedicures in the water and the three ices of sham bottles of Champagnes before my show just sitting there and I wasn’t even acknowledged by them my own Hometown friends when they would come to Vegas and it was just um who is demoralizing I will say you also have to understand it’s like you know 15 years of touring and doing shows and I’m 30 years old under my dad’s rules and all of this is going on and my mom’s witnessing this and my my my my brother is witness Nixon and my friends are what mixed with it and they all go along with it and I’m like how am I the one working here and doing all this but I don’t get the side things that um the good stuff you know I I want to be able to play I want to be able to have fun like none of it made sense to me well the last show in Vegas ended 2000 I think 17.
I went on tour which of tour I was forced to do but I was supposed to do a new show so the new show came along um rehearsal I think maybe four days a week I don’t really remember but I went to one of the rehearsals and I said no to a dance mom I was like no can we do that I don’t want to do this and then I would just remember everything got really weird Wyatt and all the directors and producers went in the back room and just spoke and that was it and I was like well I don’t know what’s going on so we all just kind of like you know what happened and then the next day I was told that I was had to be sent away to a facility and um that I was supposed to say on my Instagram the reason why is because my dad is sick and I need treatment which was I I didn’t want to go ever go there I I remember my dad calling me on the phone and crying and I was like why are you guys doing this like what and I just remember him saying it’s the doctors are going to tell you what to do I can’t help you now and I remember his last words were now you don’t have to go but if you don’t go we’re going to go to court and there’ll be a big trial and you’re going to lose I have way more people on my side than you you don’t even have a lawyer so they don’t even think about it so I did it I went to the place I was scared out of my mind and none of it again made any sense of what they were doing to me and again.
I haven’t wanted to share this because it’s unbelievably offensive sad abusive and honestly would anybody believe me I remember the main thing of when I was in that place that my heart felt like it was frozen like it was stuck inside I wanted to scream and I wanted to get out and I think by a needle and thread it was the breathing peacefully inward that I missed the most I felt like I was in a State of Shock almost like when an old person feels helpless and they’re literally going from some sort of shock treatment and they can’t relax their body because they don’t have the answers of why they can’t have their own keys to their car and put it in the nation and walk outside and their own security guards at every door saying they can’t go sitting down drawing six Galls of blood every week um weak as hell and then calling in my family is in Destin at my beach house it didn’t make sense the main thing I’d add to this day I kind of stopped believing in God at that time because I didn’t know how they could have 40 people leave my house a day and me work from eight to six at night be seen changed every time I changed in the shower no privacy no door nothing how did they get away with it and what the [ _ ] did I do to deserve that I couldn’t even smoke cigarettes people on death row can smoke cigarettes I missed my AAA meetings although I was kind of forced to go to AAA I’m not even alcoholic I actually enjoyed it because I thought the people were brilliant they shared their stories just to share their story and in a circle of women and men who just are trying to be better people and trying to touch other people um I miss my AAA meetings I couldn’t go any I couldn’t have the case in my car no cash no cigarettes no door for privacy it changed me watch me change naked every day I did work seven days a week no weekends were off they monitored what I ate um from eight to six I work sometimes at nine o’clock I’d be able to watch a movie finally the owner of the whole facility that I was always texting to try to be able to go somewhere just get out of the house that that place somehow and he had to let me go um because the free Brittany campaign came out um with all the Pink t-shirts I saw it on a lot of the morning shows and people by word of mouth and I think just by my fans knowing by heart that something was up I remember one of the guys were on an interview on the street and he said you know what I could be totally wrong and if I’m wrong I’ll be really really embarrassed and I’ll just go have a drink somewhere he said but I do feel like something they’re doing something to her right now and I’m not surely what it is but that’s what my heart says but the whole thing that made it really confusing for me is these people are on the street fighting for me but my sister and my mother aren’t doing anything um to me it was like they secretly honestly liked me being the bad one like I was messed up and they kind of just liked it that way otherwise why weren’t they outside my doorstep saying baby girl get in the car let’s go I think that’s the main thing that hurt me um…
I couldn’t process how my family went along with it for so long and I mean almost five almost half a year you know um and there only was response was we didn’t know I’m like I’m on the phone telling you right now I’m here please eventually by the grace of God and praying on my knees I left the place um but I was still scared I was really really scared and um from then on I had support I needed a lot of support and I found two really really great people that would come to my house weekly and just help me with my mind because I didn’t understand all the therapy that I had to do there but why have therapy when it’s forced and in like a militant almost prison-like way that like is where you don’t you’re not even all there none of it made sense well I think my strength grew because I didn’t reach out to my dad anymore um and they were playing the game of ball and twist of you know she’s gonna come running back to us because you know we’ve scared her and we’re the bosses here but I didn’t I just stalled and I stalled and I stalled and I stalled and finally I think they just knew I wasn’t going back and I finally got a lawyer a wonderful friend finally got me a lawyer and he really helped me through it to me the thing was I think the trauma of all of it and and and just the whole thing together and going down to how much effort and work and hard I put in to what I did when I did work even down to the details of how many rhinestones are going to be in my costume and I cared so much and they literally killed me they threw me away that’s what I felt like my family threw me away I was performing for like thousands of people at night in Vegas the rush of being a performer the laughter The Joy the respect I was shaking over 40 people’s hands every night before a show training weekly three training sessions a week AAA meetings therapy sessions I my dad literally I was a machine I was a [ _ ] machine not even human almost it was insane how hard I worked and the one time I speak up and say no in a rehearsals to a [ _ ] dance move they got pissed I feel like the scare tactic and how badly they treated me in the end I think they thought I was going to come begging back to work again because I was they thought you know I needed them um because they they did they put me in an ignorant scared State of Mind to make me feel like I needed them and if you don’t um do what we say we’re going to show you who’s boss I didn’t play their game anymore I got on my knees every day and I prayed I held on like a needle and thread to some sort of existence because they had made me feel like nothing for so long I knew in the deepest deepest part of my core I knew I’d done nothing wrong and I didn’t deserve the way I’d been treated I do think the hardest thing for me was I wanted to use my feet and leave and run or go somewhere I had to be placed in a chair from like eight to six every day.
I couldn’t take it I talked to rabbis I’ve talked to grown men about it and they’re like we don’t see how you did it honestly I don’t either and through that I I remember saying I don’t believe in God anymore I honestly deserve an award for acting like I was okay every day I thought they were trying to [ _ ] kill me I remember one time I was backstage and I needed my inhaler um and I opened up to my assistant um because I had my phone with me which I’m not supposed to have my phone underneath the stage but I said Terry you know what I’m doing I was talking to a guy and he wanted to just leave the country with me we had it all set up to just leave and it was a secret relationship and I said my biggest fear was what would my dad do if I did do something wrong what if I left the country what and what if they found me and what would they do and I said I feel like they would lock me up or something or really hurt me and she looked at me and she said are you kidding me Brittany your dad would never do that to you and I didn’t even do anything wrong and he still did it I’m honestly more angry at my mom because I heard when reporters would call her at the time and ask questions of what was going on she would go endlessly innocently hide in the house and she wouldn’t speak up it was always like I don’t know what to say I just don’t want to say the wrong thing we’re praying for her I feel like she could have gotten me a lawyer in literally two seconds my friend helped me get one in the end but I truly I every time I made contact with a firm my phone was tapped and they would take my phone away away from me and again I get nothing out of sharing all of this I have offers to do interviews with Oprah and so many people lots and lots of money but it’s insane.
I don’t want any of it for me it’s beyond a sit-down proper interview I had no contact in that place for so long and my heart would just want to stand up in my family’s faces and scream and cry and throw a tantrum and go back in time and do exactly what I wanted to do with those times yeah and might even spit in their [ _ ] faces why because the pain my family gave me sitting me there all day and not being able to use my feet as they watch their grandchildren run bases to base in a family family neighborhood as if I’m dead or I don’t exist honestly makes me look up and say how the [ __ ] did they get away with it how is there a god is there a God giving eight Galls of blood weekly not being able to stand up I was so so so weak and my family’s at my beach house I was scared broken I’m sharing this because I want people to know I’m only human I do feel victimized after these experiences and how can I mend this if I don’t talk about it I have an amazing song right now with one of the most brilliant men of our time and I’m so grateful but if you’re a weird if you’re a weird introvert Oddball like me who feels alone a lot of the time and you needed to hear a story like this today so you don’t feel alone know this my life has been far from…
